My therapist gave me homework. Which at the time of writing this postcard is due tomorrow. I do not think I'm going to complete this assignment which is essentially supposed to be me writing a letter to my father. I am supposed to put aside any voice I have to self-censor and write about what a terrible person he is/was... Everything that I can remember write it down. I cannot think of anything. My dad is a bit of a flake. But honestly, he is not a bad person, just a bit of a passenger to things. Lots of promises. Lots of straight to voicemails. Lots of sitting at dinner tables without the prep or clean up.
Sent to my good friend PR. I waffled about posting this. I still am. I looked up the definition of flake just in case I was wrong. I don't think my father was always a flake. Time changes people. Perhaps I can call him that because I can identify with it because I too am a bit of a flake. I also think I am giving myself too much credit. No one reads this blog. This is undeniably my fault since I never post and never really attempt any outreach. Hmm. Sounds a bit flaky if you ask me.
I have since gone to that therapy session I mentioned without my homework in hand. The therapist commented that I misunderstood the assignment anyway he had wanted me to essentially write an autobiography in a month. Start from my earliest memory and walk back (forward?) to the present date. Everything I can remember. I look back on my life and I see a lot of fog. I just can not remember anything. Maybe I did just too good a job at compartmentalizing that I forgot where I left it?